Good Bye January

Good Bye January and good riddance to you.  Living for the now is the only way to be.  I am talking to GM service (Jody) and he has scheduled us for the 12th of February to get the truck fixed.  Another $400 to keep our Blue Baby running.  Jody is such a nice service person especially since I hate dealing with people in general. 
February is the month that begins my actual 2011 year.  I spend the entire month of January planning the year and completing tasks from the prior year.  I amended my skincare program yet again since I seem to be getting pimples from just about everything that I used.  I'm also adding Ballet Conditioning to the Recumbent bike exercise program.  Pewter dragon should be completing the repairs on Zack's PS2 Need For Speed Hot Pursuit 2 game this week or early next week.  It will give him something else to play with. 
Purifying and Cleansing is the theme for the month of February.  At the Spring Equinox/Ostara in March, the theme will be New Beginnings.  At Beltane on May 1st, the theme will be growing what we planted at New Beginnings.  At the Summer Solstice in June we nurture our New Beginnings Projects to their fullest potential.  At Lammas, we begin harvesting our New Beginnings Projects and continue this theme through the Autumn Equinox/Mabon and evaluate our successes at the new year at Samhain in October.  I'm working on the New Beginnings Projects right now and will list them here on the blog on the Spring Equinox/Ostara.   The purifying/cleansing will take place at Imbolc/Candlemas on February 2nd. 
I haven't talked to my oldest offspring since mid January.  Zack and Tall, Dark and Handsome and my mom ask periodically if I have talked to her. 
My body definitely feels like it needs purifing or purging and a thorough cleansing, ha ha ha.  One project that needs careful attention is to state my objective and expect to receive it PERIOD. 
Where are you Tall, Dark and Handsome?  We miss you.
Good bye January, it has been an interesting month.

Friendship

To be able to offer something to someone else, you have to be able to be a friend to yourself.  This is where I lack.  I always seem to depend upon someone else to feel good about myself.  The "feeling good about yourself" comes first.  This was one of the first lessons I studied when reviewing the "Law Of Attraction" information.  People in this country seem to be taught the backwards way of living from birth to death.  The turmoil that is everywhere is humans reactions to their mental conditioning which contradicts everything humans are about.  Animals seem to have it right and they rely solely on instinct.  The instinct that is buried while we "learn to live" in schools, workplaces, social events, etc. 

I have to love myself to love someone else.  Do whatever it takes to be happy and at peace with where you are NOW, then you will be in a place to create exactly what you do want.  Simple, yes, simple to practice, yes...if you are diligent and truly want it bad enough. 

What do you truly want?  Have you ever thought about that?  Why do you truly want it? Write it down.  Read and re-read it and take note of how you truly feel.  Does it evoke feelings of joy and happiness?  If not, keep searching for what you truly want.  Most humans have no idea what they truly want.  

Winter Sun

It is almost like you can reach out and touch the sun in the winter.  Staying close to the horizon on its daily path across the sky.  When there is snow on the ground,  the sun's reflection is piercing.  I can now see why sunblock is a must have in the snow covered winters.  The sunburns can catch you by complete surprise. 
The overcast that brought me into 2011 keeps calling my name.  This is one self created overcast that may never go away.  Only I can decide how it is handled.  Do I break it up into pieces or do I endure and attempt to prove myself yet again.  That is the question of the day.  We shall see how it all unfolds.

Trail Into The Darkness

Have you ever wanted to go down the trail into the darkness?  There are days that I thought this would be my only option, till I figured out that I have control over my moods, attitude, options, etc.  I can choose how to feel about anything and everything.  Why would I relinquish this control to someone else?  I've been letting the happenings that surround me to control my moods, attitudes, etc.   Wow, it has taken me 45 years to figure this out. 
I remember when I first heard that "thoughts become things".  I was shocked, but as I researched a little further, I realized that I had been doing this since I was a child. 
Every Labor Day growing up in Texas, we would go to my grandma's in Dime Box, TX.  I always had fun because it was much different than where I was raised in Houston, TX.  I had always had thoughts of my friends in Houston participating in this wonderful Labor Day ritual and I'm not talking about the variety of girlfriends I brought with me throughout the years, but friends from school or from the neighborhood.  Well, while I was in high school, this very thing happened.  A couple of boys from the neighborhood showed up in Dime Box on Labor Day weekend for the Fireman's Picnic.  My Dime Box friends and my Houston friends had an afternoon to mix.  What made it even more fun, was my grandma's neighbor had her grandson that same weekend and he was from Austin, TX.  Everyone got to mix.  I will never forget that "Thoughts Become Things" and I know for a fact that this is true.
Tall, Dark and Handsome is coming home early today.  He usually leaves on Sunday or Monday and doesn't return till sometime of Friday's.  The Blue Limo needs some work done, but we are debating on whether it needs to be done this weekend or can wait a couple of weeks.  I shall know soon enough. 
The sun is out today which always looks totally different in the winter time.  It is kind of a low slung glare.  Midnight (the black male stray cat that has adopted us here) was awaiting the food that is put out each morning.  He was looking earnestly passed me into the house and up the stairs like he wanted to come in and stay.  Talk, Dark and Handsome has stated "No more indood animals..PERIOD".  You see, when I met Tall, Dark and Handsome, he had 5 indoor cats which had been split between himself and his ex wife.  He brought with him Callie and Spaz which both lived for many years with us.  After they passed on, he decreed "No more indoor animals...PERIOD".  My oldest son is hoping that changes in the next few years so he can have a cat on his bed at night.  We shall see.

Boo Boo Kitty

The above photo is of Boo Boo Kitty.  She was the stray that befriended us when we lived in Laurel Hill, FL.  She was about as wild as they come too.  She brought us some of the things that she killed which included several snakes, a rabbit and many mice.  We lived on 250 acres of wood land property with several barns, etc.  The house was built in 1939 and had a cellar which was accessed from the outside in the backyard.  There was stuff in the cellar that probably dated back from the 1940's.  It could be a very scary place if you let it.  Everything about the place was falling down, but it afforded the ultimate in privacy (or so we thought).  There are several cats that come and eat from the food that we put out daily, but none of befriended us like Boo Boo Kitty did.  She was a sweetheart.  We miss you Boo Boo!

Rainy Day Cold

Woke up this morning to a cold, rainy day which reminds me of Texas in the winter.  The boys were in a frightful mood as well upon awakening, but we have survived the a.m. since it is already p.m. around here.  Haven't heard yet from dad today.  As of last evening, dad was in Flint, MI and was to pick up a load today and take it to St. Louis, MO and then on to Tulsa, OK hopefully.  We talked to dad 4 or 5 times yesterday since he was parked in Flint awaiting instructions.  We talked to Nana yesterday too.  Paw had gone to Industry, TX to the auction and Nana was trying to figure out what to do with her free time.  I'm glad they are enjoying their retirement.  Haven't heard from my oldest in a while. 
I've been enjoying the book "Ordaining Reality: The Science Behind The Power Of Positive Thinking".
I've also been enjoying rereading "The Neville Reader" and "The Law Of Attraction".


I read these books while I'm on the recumbent bike which I ride everyday for 30 minutes.  They each contribute to bettering my mood when I want to feel sorry for myself or for the rain induced mood that seems to prevail around here.  I think a creamy potato stroganoff with homemade buttermilk biscuits for dinner will serve to enlighten the mood as well.  We will probably watch a Little Bear DVD while I read to Conner since this requires snuggling.  This is the ultimate snuggle weather.  I've been looking at new living room furniture.  The sectional sofa's that have built in recliners seem to be calling my name.  The ultimate in snuggle comfort and in a mellow earth tone of forest green or brown bark would keep the mellowness of the main living area.  I've decided that the pictures that are to be hung will be photos that we
we have taken on vacations and travels to keep the energy in the home personal.  Well, it is time to ride the bike and get lost in my reading.
Hope everyone has a wonder filled Wednesday.

Candle Magick

I love candles and I love magick.  Put both together and make your wishes come true.  Use either your color correspondences or go with your gut feeling regarding the color candle that you use.  Carve your wish into the wax of the candle and as the candle burns down, your wish is carried off the be fullfilled.  I know, it sounds to simple, but it works.  You can also use herbs, essential oils, etc.  to enhance your magick, but it isn't necessary.  The type of candle isn't important either.  I have used tealight candles (in the metal cups), votive candles (can take a long time to burn down), but my favorite are chime candles which are larger than birthday candles, but only take 3 hours to burn completely down which is what you really want.  If your candle isn't big enough to write your wish onto it, write it on paper and set your candle on top of the paper.  When you light your candle, focus on the outcome of your wish or your intention which is absorbed into the candle when you focus on it and light it, then as it burns down, it carries your magick to be completed. 
Sometimes I have several candles burning at once for really big magick with multiple intentions.  It is all in what you are comfortable with.  Try it, you might just be pleasantly surprised.

Dream House

I found my dream house above.  This is the house that was constructed for the movie "Practical Magic" which starred Sandra Bullock, Aidan Quinn and Nicole Kidman.
I haven't seen this movie in ages, but now that I've seen this house, I'll be purchasing at Amazon shortly. 
I'm still finding my way back home.  This week has started out better than last week and 2011 looks promising with regards to the wonderful books I am currently reading regarding deliberate creation. 
I went through my books today and added many more to the blog bookshelf.  As I get time, I will be posting a review for each of the books I have read.  Some books I will need to re-read since it has been years since I've read some of those listed. 
For the past several years, I utilized a day planner from 7th House Publishing.  Due to their lack of customer service regarding several items I purchased from them in 2010, I went looking in December for a day planner to replace it.  It wasn't easy to find since most planners are weekly or monthly planners and I need something a little "deeper" on occasion.  I found the coolest planner called "The Sacred Journey".  What a wonderful concept and their are directions on how to use it and how others have utilized it over the years.  This was its 16th year in publication and it is obviously popular since the only ones you can find on Amazon now are $83 plus.  I would suggest purchasing it early next year if your looking for a unique day planner/calendar idea.
Pomegranate is the publishing house that distributes the calendar and they may have more at a much better price than Amazon.  If anyone has any suggestions for unique day planner calendars, please respond to this blog post so I can review for next year.  I almost went back to the Witch's Datebook listed below.  I used it from 1999 through 2003 and began using the 7th House version in 2004 through 2010. 
I'm going to be looking for a Dragon calendar for my oldest son's room for 2012.  He had a nice one for 2010, but did not receive a 2011 one for Yule last year. 
I researched planners and calendars for a month in the latter part of 2010, but didn't find anything impressive till finding my Sacred Journey day planner.  I will be purchasing the cards that work with the day planner for 2012. 
I'm tired of the cold weather already.  I was born in the deep southwest (Texas to be exact) and am aching to "find my way home" which should be happening sometime really soon (I hope).  Deliberate Creation got me here, so Deliberate Creation will get me back home.  Only focus on what you want, ignore what you don't want.  Never give what you don't want any attention, even if it is just to say "No, I don't want it" because by saying "No, I don't want it" your giving it attention.  Just a reminder (mostly for myself). 

Finding My Way Back

The Snow Moon of January 2011 has led to many new revelations.  Apparently since November 2004, someone has been impersonating me (who in their right mind would do that?).  Now that they have been captured, it is time for me to find my way back home. 
I am currently reading "Ordaining Reality: The Science Behind The Power Of Positive Thinking" which is listed below.  There are several versions of the book.  I am reading the science driven original book.

There is also an in-between version called "Ordaining Reality Made Easy".

This version removes most of the scientific information listed in the orginal text.  For an easy "to the point" version, please see "Ordaining Reality In Brief: The Shortcut To Your Future".

Once I have completed the original book, I will conduct some experiments regarding its contents and will post those here with the results. 
I've been watching "The Pretender" and "Profiler" on youtube.  I used watch these t.v. shows prior to my identity disappearing.  Apparently the impostor has also contacted people from my past and who knows what was said and done but I'm not interested in finding out.  Listen to my IB and consciously create my reality to my specifications.  This should keep me busy for a while.  I have three wonderful children.  The oldest is out on her own, creating her life as she wants it.  My younger ones are two wonderful boys who both have Autism.  I also have a wonderful husband who supports us while I manage the home.  It feels weird being back, but quite comforting.  The journey has now started...

Good Bye 2010

2010 was a life changing year for me.  We moved from Florida to Tennessee which I thought was going to be home for us, but by the end of the year, everyone wanted to move back to Texas.  Tall, Dark and Handsome had to get a trucking job which takes him away from us all week and I had to relearn everything that Tall, Dark and Handsome does at home to be able to keep some normality in our family.  Life certainly changed, but I created it.  I do remember off and on creating the outcome, but I had no idea how the outcome was going to be achieved.  What needs to be done now is creating new and improved outcomes, then just relaxing and letting them happen.  I cannot be so dependent upon another, but be dependent upon myself.  I can do this.  I've proved it over and over that I can do this.  Many revelations were brought to my attention regarding how Tall, Dark and Handsome felt about many issues within our lives.  I had no idea with regards to most of them.  It shocked me that he was so double standard oriented.  If I had given him what he says he wants from me, he would have never taken it.  I guess I shouldn't assume what Tall, Dark and Handsome would take, I'm not him.  Life is definitely what you make it out to be. 
I cleaned out my closet and filled 4 30 gallon garbage bags full of trash.   If we are moving to Texas, I definitely don't wish to take my trash. 
Well, here is to 2011, may it be everything I deliberately create.